radiculouzh thing i've done

mamakoeh bilang,,
"giemanah kalow miesalnyah orang iank kamoeh sukagh ngelakuindh tuch kekamoeh??
kamoeh pazhtie bakal cakiedh hatie liyadhnyah..
kalow dy pacarmoeh pazhtie langsung kamoeh putuzhiendh..
kamoeh sekalie-sekalie pikiriendh jugag donk perasandh orang iank saiank ama kamoeh..
jangandh ngejar 'asal gue seneng ajah'!!"

u're right,mom,,
akoeh mank terlaluw ciebugh ngejar hal-hal iank bikindh akoeh seneng,,
although juzht for a while..
sakieng ciebughnyah samhpegh sering gag mikierindh perasaandh orang laendh..
tapie apah orang iank akoeh sukagh jugag mikiriendh perasaandh akoeh??
NO!!
no cozh he didn't know boudh thizh..
gag taw,,
andh will never know..

my mom's right for 1 thing,,
cakiedh rasanyah waghtu taw orang iank akoeh sukagh ama orang laendh,,
mezhkie tuch cumandh sekedar ngobrol,,
dudugh bareng,,
jalandh sebelahandh,,
saw his pic with another girl,,
taw kalow ada orang laendh iank jugag ngerepindh dy,,
ngarepindh apah iank harepindh selama nie..
so sick..

so sick when i realized thadh i've broken cozh sumone who will never know thadh i loved him..

sick cozh unreason things,,
konyol bangedhz rasanya!!
but thizh silly things're really made me sick,,
insane andh condhtinue..
kekonyolandh nie iank bikindh cakiedh berkepandhjangandh,,

cakiedh hatie nie bikindh akoeh egoizh,,
selfizh bcozh i became uncare to another's feeling,,
perasaandh orang iank selama nie udah saiank ama akoeh..
people who cared with me..
i knew thadh sorry is nodh enough for all thadh i've done..
akoeh taw akoeh biesa nebuzh tuch semuwa dengandh akoeh gag mikirindh orang iank bikindh akoeh cakiedh hatie,,
tapie akoeh gag sangguph ngelakuindhnyah..